I am taking my power back from the six men that raped me, society that blamed me, retaliated against me, excused and protected rapists.
A slow dive into the depths of the ocean,
Dove deep inside of myself to learn about myself,
Learned how to have a relationship with
The music, class and myself.
Learned how to communicate what I
Was feeling honestly with another person.
Learned to be intimate with the 52 moves of Nia,
Class and myself.
Dove a little bit deeper into my mind
And uncovered the truth about me
Allowed myself to feel,
Expressed what I was feeling,
Allowed the tears to come out
Allowed others to be there for me.
I went through a transformation at Blue Belt.
Learned that I feel the safest laying on the floor,
Learned to take care of myself,
Learned that doing my best varies from day to day,
Learned to love myself and to see the jewel that is inside.
Learned that I have a gift for finding music that
Creates magic and healing.
Learned that I can be there for others and that I am a wounded
Learned that it is my birth right to take up space.
It’s my birth right to feel what I feel
It’s my birthright to heal and to help others to heal.
It’s my choice to live my life.
I choose to live my life.
I choose to love myself.
I choose to help others to heal.
I choose to take a stand against what is right and wrong.
I choose to live in the present moment.
I am a blue Jewel.
One of my friends looked at me
And told me, “When are you going to know that
You are brave? You are facing the demons that
Are deep inside of you. You have shared your
Truth with the world. You have advocated for
Others. That is being brave. Now the best thing, you
Can do is to look in the mirror and
say I love you. Also, to let go of the pain
you are feeling, start to love yourself, let
the tears come out and love yourself. You need to realize
how brave you are. You are valuable to the people
you know. When are you going to start to believe it yourself?
Heal your heart one day at a time, one tear
at a time, and one moment at a time.
It’s okay to be real with yourself and honest about
What you are really feeling deep inside. Let yourself
Being brave is facing the demons and healing yourself.
Being brave is allowing yourself to truly love yourself.
Being brave is knowing that your worth comes from within yourself.
I met you one day in June when
Me and my friends came from the
Healing retreat, I was on.
You were in your stall in the barn,
I saw how beautiful you were and
I was drawn to come meet you.
I found that you were a mighty horse
Whose name is Storm,
Your head was covered with
A mask because you were hurt,
I related to you since I was used to wearing
A mask to protect myself,
I saw the beauty that was inside of you
Through the mask you was wearing.
I came over and started touching you,
You loved the attention that I was giving you,
We connected on an emotional level that day.
The next time I saw you, I was very upset
And very emotional from having a challenging day.
I came to stand beside you
And you put your head over my shoulder
You were there for me and comforted me,
You helped me to heal that day by just being
A magnificent horse and being my friend.
I started crying more and was glad that you were
You saw into me and provided a safe
Place for me to feel what I was feeling.
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Take some deep breaths,
Feel your feet on the floor,
Take some deep breaths,
Feel your inhale and exhale,
Look at what all is around you
Realize that you have grown and changed,
There is no need to hold on to your past any more,
You know what direction you are going in
And the trauma from your past has held you long enough,
It’s time to start living,
It’s time to say enough pain,
It’s time to love yourself,
The past is no longer serving me,
I do not need this pain any more,
I am much stronger than them,
I am a brave, strong, compassionate Warrior
Who knows where she wants to take her life.
Today is the day that we let go.