Question I was asked recently:
Why did you write your poetry book?
I started off writing poetry when I was in the Navy. I needed an outlet to get rid of all of the pain I was feeling. I was severely depressed, having constant triggers and flashbacks. I was totally alone in all of the pain and grief that I was feeling. I become suicidal. I started cutting and burning my arms to deal with the pain. I was being retaliated against and emotionally abused for reporting I was raped. With encouragement from a friend and therapist, I got a journal and started writing poetry.
Once I was out of the Navy, I started writing more and more. It was during Blue Belt that I discovered how healing writing poetry was and started writing more and more. My therapist that I was seeing encouraged me to write more and more. She saw how it was helping me to get the words out that I could not say yet. She asked me to read some of my poems in sessions. She told me what I was doing was called Write to Heal.
I wrote my poetry for me, to free me from all of the emotions that were stuck inside. I never wrote my book of healing poetry to “keep people stuck in there trauma’s”. If any thing the writing of my poetry was to free myself from the constant thoughts, replays of what happened to me, and to help me to process what had happened to me.
If one has not been raped, one does not realize that images, triggers, flashbacks occur all of the damn time. What happened to me replays over and over and over again. It’s not that I am “wanting to live in my trauma or keep others stuck in there’s. It’s that what happened will not let go of me. There’s this thing called Write to Heal. That is why I write. I write to feel to heal. I write to speak my truth.