I started to work a little in the book, The Courage to Heal. I talked to two of my friends because I just did not want to be by myself. I was feeling overwhelmed and like I needed to cry.
I skip around in the book because there are certain things that I am ready for and other things that I am not ready for. It would be really nice if I could just let myself cry but I cannot let myself cry. What happened to me really bothers me and I keep on blaming myself for being raped.