LETTER TO CANCER FROM A CARE GIVER

 

CANCER, HOW I REALLY HATE YOU. I HAVE WATCHED YOU INVADE MY MOM’S BREASTS AND CAUSED HER TO HAVE A DOUBLE MASTECTOMY. I HAVE WITNESSED MY MOTHER GO THROUGH CHEMOTHERAPY AND RADIATION. I HAVE SEEN HOW SICK YOU HAVE MADE MY MOTHER. I HAVE SEEN THE PAIN YOU CAUSE. I WITNESSED YOU GO INTO REMISSION AND THEN COME BACK IN 2013. I WITNESSED YOU CAUSE DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY. I HAVE SEEN YOU CHANGE MY MOTHERS LIFE AND OUR FAMILIES LIFE.  I HAVE BEEN THERE WITH MY MOTHER HAS SHE HAS DEALT WITH ALL OF THIS. I HAVE SEEN THE PAIN YOU HAVE CAUSED MY MOTHER, ME, FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

IN 2015, I WITNESSED YOU METASTIZE AND ATTACK CAUSE FLUID ON MY MOTHERS LUNGS AND ABDOMEN. I WATCHED YOU ATTACK MY MOTHERS COLON AND CAUSED A STRICTURE THAT HAD TO BE SURGICALLY REMOVED. THEN WE STARTED DOWN THE ROAD OF FIGHTING YOU BACK. I WAS THERE WHEN THE DOCTOR TOLD US THAT HE WAS UNABLE TO GET CLEAN MARGINS. I WAS THERE WITH MY MOTHER WHEN THEY TOLD HER THAT BREAST CANCER USUALLY DOES NOT GO TO THE COLON.  I HAVE CRIED WITH MY MOTHER.

THESE PAST YEARS (2016, 2017), I HAVE BEEN THERE WITH MY MOTHER WHEN SHE HAS HAD ABRAXANE TO KICK YOU BACK. I HAVE BEEN THERE WITH MY MOTHER HAS SHE HAS THROWN UP, NOT ABLE TO EAT, AND HAD SEVERE PAIN. I HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN MY MOTHER LEGS AND FEET ARE BURNING SO BAD BECAUSE OF THE MEDICATION.  I HAVE FELT HELPLESS BECAUSE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO GET RID OF YOU AND TO MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER FOR MY MOTHER. I HAVE HEARD MY MOM SAY THAT IF SHE IS GOING TO DO THIS CHEMOTHERAPY THAT GOD HAS TO TAKE AWAY THE PAIN. I HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN MY MOM HAS HAD SEVERE Abdominal  PAIN AND HAS PASSED OUT.

I HAVE BROKEN DOWN AND CRIED SO MANY TIMES. CANCER YOU SCARE ME AND I HATE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO MY MOTHER. I HATE WHAT YOU DO TO MANY PEOPLE THAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU.  MY MOTHER IS A GREAT, LOVING, COMPASSIONATE WOMAN THAT SHOULD NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO DEAL YOU CANCER.  YOU MAKE ME SO AFRAID.

I HAVE BEEN THERE FOR MY MOM WHEN SHE WANTS TO GIVE UP AND SAYS THAT SHE HAS NOTHING LEFT TO FIGHT YOU. I HAVE BEEN THERE WITH MY MOM WHEN SHE HAS FELT GOOD AND GREAT DAYS. I HAVE BEEN THERE WITH MY MOM WHEN SHE HAS GREAT DAYS AND HAS ENERGY TO DO THINGS.  CANCER I REALLY HATE YOU AND I WISH THAT YOU WOULD GO AWAY.  I WISH THAT OUR GOVERNMENT COULD SPEND THE MONEY TO FIND A CURE FOR CANCER. I WISH OUR GOVERNMENT AND PEOPLE DID NOT HAVE TO MAKE THOUSANDS OFF OF PEOPLE WHO LIVE WITH CANCER.  A CHEMO THERAPY DRUG SHOULD NOT COST ANY WHERE FROM 2,000.00 TO  20,000 DOLLARS.  I WISH THAT YOU DID NOT EXIST. YOU RUIN PEOPLE’S LIVES. I HATE YOU.

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