Nightmares, you come during the night,
You seem so real,
I am I scared,
I feel like it is happening all over again,
I am shaking,
I cannot catch my breath,
I am sobbing,
I wake up yelling,
I feel like they are here and it is happening again,
I am afraid to go back to sleep,
I keep replaying what happened to me
Over and over again.
I start crying again because the grief I
Feel is so real.
The memories are real
The flashbacks are real
This really did happen to me,
They decided to take what I had not offered,
Know I am haunted at night,
No one did anything to the six men
That raped me,
My brain will not let me forget,
The nightmares are so real,
The feelings are real,
I am edgy all day because I was not
Able to go back to sleep.
I am distant from my family and friends,
I do not feel like myself.
I am tearful
I am angry
I just want the nightmares to stop,
I want the pain to stop.
I want to scream and punch something.
I want someone to hold me and
Let me cry.
I want this to be over
I am sick of nightmares.