Mirror on the Wall

 

Mirror on the wall,

You surround the studio,

I do my best to avoid looking

At you,

I do not want to see my reflection,

I do not want to look at you,

 

When I stand in front of you,

I look down,

I avoid looking at myself by

Looking all around,

I do not want to see myself,

I do not like what I see looking

Back at me,

I do not know that person looking

Back at me,

 

I see so much hurt,

So much sadness,

So much anger,

So much betrayal,

 

I see the little girl inside of me,

I see the teenager,

I see the 23year old,

I see the 25year old,

 

I see how I have gained weight

To hide my body,

To protect myself,

To be invisible to men,

 

I do not like what I see,

But the truth is I still need to hide,

I do not feel safe,

I do not feel protected,

 

Mirror, can’t you help me to

Love myself,

Can’t you help me to face this pain,

Can’t you help me to see

That I am not what happened to me,

 

Mirror, I feel the tears coming

To the surface,

I just want to let this pain go.

I need to look at you.

 

How do I this?

How do I feel safe again?

How do I accept my body when I want nothing to

Do with being a woman?

How do I forgive myself?

How do I let this pain go?

 

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